The Place Where I Get Lost

I tried to blog before and it didn't work because I wasn't writing about things I am passionate about. So here I am, giving it a second chance. I want this place to be where I get lost. I think this blog will end up being pretty chaotic...I don't think it will have an order (hell, I don't even know if I will ever make this place public!) but for now it will be the place where I put my thoughts and knowledge of the things I love.

I hope to learn a lot of things and write lots of things...because writing has a place in my heart! I started to read when I was 4 or 5 and I discovered a parallel universe: amazing adventures, fantasy worlds....form C.S.Lewis to Tolkien to Agatha Christie to Oh! all the amazing authors there are. So much inspiration!

Writing became a part of me that I lost when I lost myself. Sounds tragic hahah but it is true. When life hits you and you don't see meaning in your life or happiness or love, everything loses its beauty. It's a dark place...and it's part of life. Everyone goes through it. At the time it doesn't seem beautiful but it is, because it is essentially human: It is human to fall and rise, to get lost and be found...over and over and over again. It is the beauty of humanity! We don't get just one chance in life. God shows his love by loving us over and over and over again in all forms and all circumstances just like a father with his children.

So why not start writing again? I am in a beautiful place in life right now: I could say I "found" myself again, but really I didn't. I found God again and that gives new meaning to everything I do. My life makes sense. All the things I went through mean so much to me. Life is beautiful. Well, from then on...met my husband, I got married, I became a mother (twice and I hope many more times). I look back and I see all the beauty in my history. I need to remember to always read between the lines. God gives new meaning to all things I do now. So here it is, the place where I get lost, but this time I get lost with a new meaning: I get lost in beauty, in light, in art, in nature, in the good things...I get lost in a world that is no longer dark.